A big change is underway in my life now. A change that I dreaded, but is important to my husband. A change that I was not looking forward to, because it means stepping out of my comfort zone. A change that is forcing me to face one of my huge fears. A change that has me feeling a wee bit alone. A change that has me feeling dazed. A change that has me feeling uncomfortable.
This change brought to mind questions about myself.
Am I ready to take the wheel and conquer the streets of Manila? I get anxious just imagining it!
Was I not being supportive when I wondered why God allowed this change?
How will I tutor my “gradeschooler” on her Math subject? Math is my Waterloo!
These days, I feel a general unease. It doesn’t help that the children started school just last week and this week. An internal panic bubbles just below the edge, which comes with opening of classes. It seems that there’s something very important that I need to do, but haven’t. I discovered this just last year. It’s like the back-to-school blues.
The first day of my eldest in grade two passed by without a photo. The first day of my boy in kinder one passed by without a photo, too. I felt terrible.
Oh, and my baby girl started Nursery. Goodbye babyhood and toddlerhood. Hello, preschool! There’s a sentimental tug on my heart.
At least I documented her first day of school. Heehee!
changing my perspective on change
It’s as if I’m floating in mid-air, grasping at nothing, not sure when my feet will touch the ground. I am waiting for the finalization of our routine. Somehow, stress is building up and I feel tired recently. I certainly do not feel blissful at the moment.
But, if I don’t hold on to something, I’ll go crazy! Change could be so unnerving! Change could be miserable!
And I need to change my perspective.
Being blissful comes not from the lack of discomfort, but by intentionally experiencing blessedness. Holding my littler ones’ hands while going to their classrooms gives me bliss. Kissing my husband before he heads off to work and greeting him when he comes home gives me bliss. Seeing my younger kids feed themselves and dress themselves gives me bliss. Taking time to draw, write and blog gives me bliss.
I am holding on to God’s promises. He has always been my anchor. And I pray He will always be. I want to be blissful in God.
my simple lettering practice using micron and brush pens edited onto my watercolor drawing
Joshua 23:14 (NIV)
14 Now I am about to go the way of all the earth. You know with all your heart and soul that not one of all the good promises the Lord your God gave you has failed. Every promise has been fulfilled; not one has failed.
To be blissful in God is to believe in His promises. The Lord’s promises never fail.
How do you cope with change?
Change would allow you to discover the other side of you that you didn’t know about. It’s difficult, but you just need to let go and let God take charge 😉 I’m sure He has good plans for you Ceemee! Just trust and lift it all up to Him 😉 God bless you always!
Thanks, Celine, for the encouragement. God bless you, too!
I am afraid of change and I hate stepping out of my comfort zone. That maybe the reason why I am still hanging to being a working mom because I am afraid what might be its effect on me.
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Hi! You’re very talented, I like your watercolor projects. As to the changes, it’s natural to have butterflies in the stomach. You’ll get through. Having a supportive and loving family makes it all easy. Where in Manila will you be?
Thanks, Shelly!
The word change scares me actually but it also makes my faith with HIM stronger which helps me accept whatever tomorrow brings. May the word of God help you with your current dilemma. Wishing you all the best.
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Thank you. I guess changes and other difficulties are there so we could turn to the Lord all the more.
Change is the only permanent thing in the world but I still have a hard time dealing with it especially if I have to deal with my fears and leave my comfort zone too. As of now, I’m adjusting with my son’s schedule in school.
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God bless with that, Michi!
Changing ones perspective is certainly not easy but once it is done is can be really a great change.
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Yes, it truly is.
I hope that whatever it is you are going thru, that you transition with bliss. Change isn’t always easy to cope with – kahit na we already know that it’s the only thing constant in this world diba? There’s almost always resistance to change, parang birth pains. At work I’m the one introducing change and I wish everyone would just be on board automatically but truth is, there will always be at least one person who will need more time to just ‘get it.’ To cope, I just take a deep breath and remember my purpose.
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True that change is inevitable. We all need adjusting.
I love the quote and I say amen to that. I usually had those back to school blues when my kids were young. I guess it’s just normal for us moms to worry that we may not be able to do what’s best for our kids, but surprisingly, we always manage to do it.
I can relate with you! I also worry that, too.