Have you ever felt like you made a string of erroneous decisions? Have you ever felt like you are not talented, intelligent, or capable enough to succeed at whatever you try your hand at? Have you ever felt like God must have made a mistake when He called you to be a mother or a wife?
My heart echoes these sentiments. Sometimes I feel like all I do is wrong and I question God about putting such big responsibilities into my hands. What if I fail?
When I read Mary’s song, The Magnificat, I felt like it spoke to me and made me admire how Mary accepted God’s will for her life. She did say that her state is a humble one, but she did not dwell on her shortcomings like I do many times. She praised God and she rejoiced because being chosen by God made her blessed.
Luke 1:46-55 (ESV)
Mary’s Song of Praise: The Magnificat
46 And Mary said,
“My soul magnifies the Lord,
47 and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior,
48 for he has looked on the humble estate of his servant.
For behold, from now on all generations will call me blessed;
49 for he who is mighty has done great things for me,
and holy is his name.
50 And his mercy is for those who fear him
from generation to generation.
51 He has shown strength with his arm;
he has scattered the proud in the thoughts of their hearts;
52 he has brought down the mighty from their thrones
and exalted those of humble estate;
53 he has filled the hungry with good things,
and the rich he has sent away empty.
54 He has helped his servant Israel,
in remembrance of his mercy,
55 as he spoke to our fathers,
to Abraham and to his offspring forever.”
With the roles God has given me, I pray that I could always magnify, glorify the Lord in them. Mary’s song of praise reminds me to rejoice in God my Savior.
Sometimes it’s difficult to rejoice when I lose my temper and feel like the worst parent on earth. And then I would begin to regret, starting with why I chose to give birth. But, I know that God will not call me to something He won’t strengthen me to undertake. Whatever I go through, God ensures that a better me it will make.
I need to remember
Philippians 1:6 (NIV)
…being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
Whenever I have the urge to give up, He is waiting to uphold me faithfully.
Cherry says
You are not alone, Cym. Sometimes, I do feel like I am the worst mother on earth too.
ceemee says
It’s nice to know I am not alone, Cherry. I guess it’s God’s way of saying we need Him.