I needed a break. I was getting cranky. I was getting stressed just thinking about the meals to plan for the week. I felt like snapping at the nanny. I was beginning to transform into the Hulk Mom. I couldn’t help myself from saying “grr…”
The youngest was crying for my attention and wanted to be carried all the time. I really should practice using the sling. The second wanted to be carried too. He also kept hugging my leg and pulling at my hand. The eldest kept asking me to draw nonstop. These were part of my ordinary days. Being needed by three small children could be tiring. Being needed all the time is draining.
After some “me-time” using the computer when the kids were all in dreamland, and my hubby was already softly snoring in bed, I quietly slipped onto the place beside him and closed my eyes. Just when I thought I had enough for one day of being needed, he put his arm around my waist and gently pulled me toward him. I felt needed by him, not in a demanding manner but to be just by his side as he sleeps. Just being me, his missing rib. 🙂 Being needed by my children is given because I’m their mommy, but being needed by my spouse, a self-sufficient adult, surprisingly felt good. It melted a chunk of the stress away. I think I dozed off with a foolish smile on my face, I really couldn’t be sure!
Philippians 4:19 (ESV) And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.
If, sometimes, being needed could be physically and emotionally stressful, there is someone who is glad to be needed. That is God. He wants us to draw near to Him and present to Him our needs. He longs for us to trust in Him and He delights in providing for us.
1 Peter 5:7 (ESV) Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.
Hebrews 4:16 (ESV) Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.