Postpartum Depression is a real and serious complication that affects women after they give birth. Although I had baby blues – I felt sad sometimes and had crying spells – I am thankful to the Lord I did not have postpartum depression. But, what I had was depression during pregnancy. I was not so sure it’s possible and I have never known anyone who experienced it. I haven’t even read about it until now. So, I didn’t dare talk to anyone about what I was going through at that time. Through this article, I learned that it’s called antepartum depression.
When I was pregnant with our second child, I was really super sad and thoughts of ending my life kept popping up in my head. I guess what triggered my depression was when I had an unresolved disagreement or misunderstanding with my hubby. I don’t even recall now what it was about. I thought of ways I could die painlessly. But, I was pregnant and I kept asking myself: What about the baby?
I think it was God’s way of preserving my life. Maybe, if I weren’t with child, I would have been six feet under ground by now. Also, I think the Lord used my fear of pain to let me stay alive. I kept crying when I was alone. Jesus was the only One I talked to. I know that He is there for me.
Jesus not only saved me from the punishment of sin, which is eternal damnation;
John 3:16 NIV
16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
but each day he is saving me from myself and from harm’s way. He truly is my rescue. I hope other people will have this wonderful relationship with Jesus Christ, like I do, and that reading The Story below will help them to begin or enhance that relationship.
I want to share the lyrics of a song that I sing when I am in awe of God’s unconditional love for me. I know I don’t deserve it, therefore it’s called the gift of grace.
“Why have You chosen me?
Out of millions your child to be?
You know all the wrongs that I’ve done.
Oh how could You pardon me?
Forgive my iniquity?
To save me gave Jesus Your son.
But Lord, help me be
What You want me to be.
Your words I will strive to obey.
My life I will give
For You, I will live.
And walk by Your side all the way.”
And also this beautiful song:
I love the song that you shared, made me feel more loved by Our Creator. I hope all moms out there who experience depression will be able to read your blog and be able to cope.
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It’s my first time to read about antepartum depression. I’m glad your already passed that phase through God’s grace.
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Thank God for all he has given. Thank you for sharing the song!
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Your relationship with God was the one saving you. If only everyone can be like you mommy, there’ll be no suicides or any mental illnesses due to depressions.
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I think, we women are most emotional, most vulnerable, especially when we are pregnant or have just given birth. I did experience this too. Maybe for some, it has got to do with our appearance (because we definitely are not in our tiptop shape before, during and immediately after pregnancy). For some it may be due the lost attention, since everybody is now focused on the little bundle of joy. Or maybe, it’s hormonal. Or a combination of everything! 🙂 so during these weakest moments, it is always good to have someone who cares and loves us no matter what. And don’t forget we always have someone up there, guiding and loving us unconditionally! 🙂
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What you said are true. God really is my rescue.
Cym, God truly heals. My first baby was stillborn, you can imagine how depressed I was. I was already questioning my faith, and felt like I had no reason to live anymore. However, God has his reasons, that I believe. He blessed me enough to be surrounded with wonderful people to get me through it all. I held on to my faith, I constantly prayed for guidance. I eventually learned to let go of the hate I harbored towards the doctors and nurses who messed up that day. My heart finally felt lighter again, and after two years He blessed me with Ethan. Thanks for sharing the beautiful song!
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I have heard about postpartum depression when I was younger and I read about it too when I was pregnant. A lot of factors can contribute to this and one thing I’ve read is that a sick baby can be a factor. I think I was on the borderline of PPD during my son’s first three months due to several diagnoses we received because he was confined twice during his first month and had gone through several lab tests the following months. Sometimes, it is not easy to just take it all in because at some point you try to blame yourself why your baby got sick to the point that it makes you literally crazy. I agree that this is something serious and women who experience this should find someone that they can confide in or just someone to listen to them and provide the comfort they need.
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Oh, my! It sure is very difficult when our newborns are sick. That is even more depressing. Yes, I do feel crazy sometimes when I’m sad. All sorts of thoughts get into the head.
Praise God! I actually didn’t know there was a kind of depression pala that occurs during pregnancy. In my case, I don’t know whether it was baby blues or true PPD, but I kept crying all the time. I was really in a dark time and despite the support, I always felt alone. I can only praise God for he kept me from doing anything I would regret.
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Thank God for His sustenance, not just financially, but emotionally and psychologically. It’s hard when it involves the last two.
It’s unfortunate that there are some women who go through this deep depression. A support system is essential in helping get past or cope through this. I had mild depression as well but was able to get through it with the help of my husband, mother and my children.
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I’ve heard of this and I’ve met someone who admitted to having depression after giving birth.
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It’s really important to surround ourselves with happy, beautiful things to create good vibes and light thoughts. You are lucky though for getting through with pregnancy without this condition.
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I heard of the term. Is there a something that triggers antepartum?
I don’t know for sure, but from what I read, it’s the problems or challenges the pregnant woman faces that triggers it.