Ahh…Pregnancy! It does bring out the worst in women at times. Take me, for example, I know I already have some challenges in qualities as a person. But I think being pregnant magnifies them a hundred times.
What are these, you ask? For one, Clumsiness.
No, I haven’t fallen from the stairs…yet! I don’t want to imagine the excruciating pain that’s going to cause. It’s just that the whole shifting of my center of gravity, looser joints thing gets to me sometimes: accidentally bumping my 4-year-old, dropping the keys or any other object (thank God not the fragile ones), spilled liquid, argh! Add to that my ever-growing belly which I always forget to take into account when squeezing myself between furniture. Or bending from the waist. Slow and steady, that’s what I need to remember, if only I am not experiencing memory loss. See below.
I thought I’m already having “senior moments” or that the effect of three previous epidurals are kicking in. I’d remember something one moment and then when I move to another room or do something, I would forget all about what I was remembering. It is said that writing down stuff could help. I also input my appointments and events in the Intuition application on my iPhone. Now, if only I remember where I put my phone…
Sleeping. Sometimes I wish I could do this all day, since it’s hard for me to fall asleep at night. Procrastinating. On my ‘to-do’ list: 1. Pack hospital bag. 2. Organize baby closet and clothes. Both I haven’t finished yet and I’m giving birth soon. Uninspired. I have a project in mind but I can’t seem to motivate myself to jumpstart it. I also have some blog post ideas but I can’t seem to find the words. I’d stare at the editor screen for hours or surf unproductively sometimes.
I don’t think I am a moody person. For me, PMS is not an excuse to be a b*tchy witchy. But that has changed since I got pregnant. I get emotional most of the time and I could be seen crying, even crying while sleeping, or snapping at my kids or daydreaming (not in the mood to do anything but be lazy, see above).
So, is pregnancy an excuse to stuff my face? Some days, yes! When I am finished with the barfing stage and then I get all sorts of food cravings, I eat with abandon and glad that my pregnant belly hides how full I really am. But, they say too much of something is not good at all. I might get gestational diabetes. The baby might be too big. My triglycerides could shoot up again. It would be harder to shed the additional pounds gained.
Moms or moms-to-be, how was/is your pregnancy?